♡; My love-hate relationship with solitude.

 I love solitude. But I loathe solitude. I love the quietness, but the quietness makes me feel sad. The constant battle between wanting to be alone and wanting to be with everyone is a struggle. Because sometimes I end up cutting people off for the sake of being alone, but then I would miss them and beg for them to comeback. I don't know how to balance my want for solitude and company. I love them both but I find it hard to balance them, maybe one day I can finally choose loneliness without cutting people off. And I hope that day comes.