The sweet reveries of the cosmos ✩

We met in Amsterdam in a very cold and lonely night. You were sitting alone in a park and I was crying on the fountain next to it. You approached me and asked me why I was crying. I asked you why you were sitting all alone here. We both found out that we tried to take our own lives on the same day. And ever since that encounter we stayed right next to eachother. You were there for me when I needed you the most, and I was there when you needed me the most. You'd leave gifts on my doorstep when you knew I didn't want to talk to anyone. You were there. You really were there for me . Until you weren't. Just like a star in the night sky that died and faded away right after, you were gone. And I still wait for you. On sunny days and on rainy nights, I look out the window. Hope still lingering in my heart. You'd comeback right? On desperate nights, I visit the park in hopes of seeing you there, sitting alone. But no, the park gradually becomes filled with people and I would sc

  We were seated across eachother on the moving train. You were reading a book, probably half of all it's pages in and you looked so focused while reading. The convoy is empty, aside from you and I. The emptiness is strange because it's an early afternoon in the middle of summer. It was quietness accompanied by the train wheels moving along the rails. I shifted my view to the landscapes, we were surrounded by sky-piercing mountains and towering trees. The sun isn't particularly very bright, but it was bright enough to make some light pass through the leaves. It casted some shadows on the train floor, occasionally disappearing when we passed by a very thick line of trees. I leaned my head on the window, it was very peaceful. I then directed my view towards you, this time you weren't reading your book, but you were listening to your MP3 player. You were looking outside the window with a tiresome expression. It was quiet, of course. But this time the music from your MP3 pl

I don't know how to express it properly, so I prefer to keep it to myself. Little did I know just how overwhelming it was to not be able to express just how much I love you. I try to leave as much hints as I can to let you know but you used to be so oblivious and it was frustrating to see because I was too shy to be obvious. Liking you was out of the blue, I never expected it to happen but it did. Do I regret it? No. I don't know how everything happened, it just happened before I even knew what was happening. I can't contain myself around you because I always feel the need to tell you just how much I adore and love you. It makes me feel all flustered and shy. It's as if everything is right when you're with me. Time flies by so fast when we're together. I wonder how many times I lost sleep because I was busy talking to you and fawning over you. I always wonder how it would be if we were right next to eachother; Would we talk? Would we shy away from eachother? Wou