♡; Secrets I have held in my heart, are harder to hide than I thought.

I don't know how to express it properly, so I prefer to keep it to myself. Little did I know just how overwhelming it was to not be able to express just how much I love you. I try to leave as much hints as I can to let you know but you used to be so oblivious and it was frustrating to see because I was too shy to be obvious. Liking you was out of the blue, I never expected it to happen but it did. Do I regret it? No. I don't know how everything happened, it just happened before I even knew what was happening. I can't contain myself around you because I always feel the need to tell you just how much I adore and love you. It makes me feel all flustered and shy. It's as if everything is right when you're with me. Time flies by so fast when we're together. I wonder how many times I lost sleep because I was busy talking to you and fawning over you. I always wonder how it would be if we were right next to eachother; Would we talk? Would we shy away from eachother? Would we just sit next to eachother without saying anything? Thoughts like these always cross my mind and I can't help but cover my face out of feeling flustered. I love being around you so much, I love talking to you, I love knowing you, I love knowing about the things you love. I like you so much and I love you so much. I will never get tired of constantly getting plagued by the thoughts of you.

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